>I had a small hope when AF was late that maybe this was how things were meant to be…instead of moving and finding new jobs, we would stay here and have a family. I thought the timing would just be so ironic. We’ve applied for jobs, are waiting to hear back, and have been thinking about new places. We’ve been so overwhelmed with what might happen or what should happen – wouldn’t it be ironic if none of it mattered, and that decision was made for us? Wouldn’t that be incredible if losing my job ended up not mattering, because we were going to have a baby?

That’s not what’s meant to be, though, at least for now. AF was only a day late, which is really what I expected. It was a nice thought, but here we go again. Another cycle, another month of not knowing if we’ll ever have children, and another month of trying to figure everything out.

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