We ran some errands over the weekend, and one of our stops included Target. It was sort of crowded, and I wouldn’t help but notice there were people with babies EVERYWHERE. It’s like they were giving things away for people who brought their babies into the store…crazy! I can handle one or two babies, but it was so many that I couldn’t help but feel like I was the only person in the store who couldn’t have a child.
I’m not all that happy with my bbt chart at the moment. I had a really high temp. on Saturday, but we stayed up super late on Friday night, and I’m sure that affected it. It was lower on Sunday, and so low today. I know my acupuncturist is going to think I’m having an implantation dip, but seriously…I find it hard to believe it’s happening EVERY month. I think it’s just what my body does, but really, I wish it wouldn’t. It makes my chart look so erratic, and then I start wondering if anything I’m doing is working.
I know I said I was going to make an appointment with that dr. this week, but I’m back to feeling unsure. I want to know what’s preventing me from getting pregnant, but I just don’t feel optimistic that he’ll really find anything. Or, that he’ll find something, and we’ll all assume that was the problem, but nothing will change. I was really hopeful when I started acupuncture, and I still am (sort of), but it’s hard. My birthday is three months from now, and I’ll be 37. I just don’t know how much longer I can keep this up.
Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.
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February 21, 2011 at 5:05 pm
Sarah
Target is definitely “where the babies are”. Not sure why, but it’s true at ours too. It might just be one of the easier stores to get in and out of with kids? Who knows.
Optimism is hard to hold onto sometimes :(. Acupuncture really does take time to work. It did great things for me, despite me never getting pregnant. Who knows – I know my old acu’s fertility program was 3 months and her success rate was insanely high. And some of the those women were headed to (or had already done) fertility treatments.